I got it!

My buddy just returned my one laptop - with a new harddrive so I am back! However I am exhausted so I am off to bed. Talk to you all soon

Still waiting

on getting one of my computers to work. In the meantime there is really nothing much to report. Work last night sucked all my tables drank water and I had crappy tippers (like $5 on $48) and one lady that walked out without paying for her check. Today was the au pair meeting at the book store. I did pick up the book for my newest fav vampire series. Mind you I wasn't looking for the series just a book and picked up not realizing that it was the book the series is based one. Can't wait to read it. But before I get to that one I am checking out another book. I decided I really need to pick up meditation to get my head back to "normal".

Sunday afternoon

Sunday afternoon
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At Grumpys moms for his stepfathers b-day

crap

crap
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Damn now I can't even boot

Jealous?!

So I got a call from my good friend from Germany. I have known M. for geee ahmn 18 years. Her and I were in the same lifeguard association so we trained together weekly and once I was 13 we also started hanging out together. We'd go to the "Erle" every Saturday. She introduced me to her clique which consisted mainly of people she went to school with. They were all 3 years older than me which was cool since I rarely hung out with people my own age. So we chatted got caught up on current events - her 24kg weightloss!!! and how her little one is doing in school and so forth. Then she was like he guess who became a dad on 4/30?
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Denny! I was like cool I am happy for him and on we went. After I hung up with her that annoying little feeling started to crawl out from under a rock somewhere inside me. I couldn't put my finger on it at first but after thinking about it I think I am jealous.

Don't get me wrong I am happy for him but the fact that he was my first (as in first real boyfriend, first lover, first guy that looked at me as if there was no other female on the planet, first guy that wanted me to be his wife and mother of his children) and now has a baby that kind of bothers me I am trying to figure out why.

Grumpy and I have been trying and I am still no closer to being a mom than I was 10 years ago. I am so annoyed by this I mean Grumpy and I are in such a great place right now, we love each other and love spending time together be it doing fun things or just hanging out. We rarely fight - actually we only had one real fight in the 4 years of our relationship. We are so completely compatible and comfortable with one another its unreal (I mean I am not an easy woman to live with or love!) This is what I always thought true love should be like so why aren't we allowed to have a family? This whole baby thing is driving me nuts. I take a ton of meds trying to get my body to where it will let me be pregnant. I take my basal temp and so forth so why me. I am so sick of hearing about all these people being pregnant or just having become parents I don't even get a fu..ing period. I could scream when I hear about these people getting pregnant that don't want kids or worse hear about people killing their babies. I have wanted a baby for 10 years and it just seems like I wont get there ------ ever and that is depressing.

Giving up

Giving up
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I am going home i have been here for over 13hs doesn't look like got much done does it

tonight

tonight
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Well at least i can do stuff online via my phone . Here is my desk I told Grumpy not to wait for me as its going to take me a while to get this kind of sraightend out. The I need to see why little laptop is acting up first it kept frezzing up on me when I tried to check emails and now it wont shut down.

gotta love technology

sorry if i am quiet but my email program keeps crashing my computer. I only have my little travel laptop to work with which is the one crashing now. My other labtops hard drive crashed and I am waiting for a friend of mine to fix it. Its sad that I have 3 computers at home and can't get one to work the way i want it. Let me run and try to de/reinstall the program and see if that fixes the problem


PS The movies was awesome - dinner was okay

At the movies

At the movies
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Waiting for silver surfer to start

Damn its hot

Damn its hot
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nothin much

Haven't had much to say.

After dinner we saw Ocean thirteen. It wasn't as good as Eleven but much better than Twelve. While our dinner view was lovely the rest of the dinner left much to desire. Our Ice tea was fermented, the appetizers left much to be desired, Grumpys dinner was cold and mine was just icky. So we'll redo it this Wednesday. This time we are going to this place one of the other girls works in. Its supposed to be really good. Then we are going to see the Silver Surfer.
Anyway between homeowrk and work haven't had much time the last few days. Somehow I managed to hurt my back so waiting tables was painful. I still made good money even while trying not to work much. That's what I love about our restaurant. Right now I am enjoying my day off. I had lunch at my favorite indian restaurant with my Scottish friend. I spend the am yesterday cleaning the bedroom and I tell you I was horrofied. I mean I knew it was bad but yuck!!!!!!!!! Today is laundry day. Here are some photos of the spoiled kitties and the newest bunny picture.

Cleo and Grumpy - check out the look she gives me Here is Misty in her newest hidaway. We put a little stuffed pig in there for her to be more cozy. And last not least the newest bunny picture. The front yard looks so empty now with the big oak tree and the spruce gone. I can't wait for Grumpy to plant some new stuff.

dinner

dinner
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b-day dinner with Grumpy

bunnyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

This little guy waited for me at my car when I left the office.

bye bye - its been fun

What a weekend. Man first that crap with Boston and trying to get home - I just want to point out this is two out of two for Boston and if at all possible I will avoid number 3. The first time was a few years back, I went up for some training for the AP stuff. I got in late, there was no place to get food, then the fire alarm in the hotel was set off and at 2am all of us where out in the rain then there was no breakfast and to top the trip off my flight home got canceled. I finally got on a flight to DC (it was Grumpys b-day and I was trying to get back). I had no idea on how to go from there. Some lady on the plane heard me and said she could give me a ride to Richmond from where Grumpy picked me up. Everything was fine till her and her finance started talking about mental patients, sicknesses and institutions - then I got a bit scared.
This weekend was quite as dramatic I never did find out about what was going on in Philly and why no flights left from there, I ended up after waiting for 5hs flying into Richmond. From there I got a rental car - it was supposed to be $25 but ended up costing me $68! Then I got on the road and get stuck in friggen traffic!!!!! Then to make my weekend even more a success I get pulled over Saturday while following traffic. I have a squeaky clean driving record so I need to find out what to do.

Work, Saturday night, was okay. I got a party off 11 that where fun to work and I made $116 of them. That helped take the sting out of loosing a big party that was coming in later that night (the 2 that got two work it made nearly $400 each of it!)

Today was my last day at Busch Gardens. It was kind of bitter sweet. I will miss a lot of the people there but I am glad that now I may have my Sundays off. Yahhhhh I get one day off a week - well except for when I have to do AP stuff. Well I may get my house a bit cleaner - maybe.

shit

shit
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Man i just got pulled over speeding and expired req crap i know i renewed that thing. Did i mention this is not my weekend.

HOME!

HOME!
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Finally

You got to be kidding

You got to be kidding
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Is there anything else?! I WANT TO GO HOME!

My savior

My savior
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I hate flying out of Boston

I hate flying out of Boston
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Fuck i am never getting home.

lunch

So I am in Boston today for a meeting. My flight was pretty uneventful which was nice aside from where the jetway wouldn't work and we got to wait for 20 min trying to get of the plane. When I got to the hotel I was told I couldn't check in yet so I told them to call me when my room was ready and went for a walk. After goofing of for 3 hours I went back to see if it was ready and again was told NO!. I went by the registration desk of my meeting and the meeting planer couldn't believe it. She made a call and wouldn't you know it there was a room. So after taking a shower I hoped on over to the Cheesecake Factory where I indulged into this yummy drink.

lunch
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After napping it was off to dinner. Here are some pictures from this afternoon.

view from my roomcooling looking church
P.S. Can you believe the PH crap? WTH so now if a prisoners nerves are not good they can be put on house arrest. I would love for her ass to be hauled of to jail again tomorrow. She's gonna have to learn at some point that she has to be accountable for her actions.

Am I evil .... Yes I am

So you all know the Metallica song Am I evil right????? The chorus goes like

Am I Evil?
Yes I am
Am I Evil?
I am man, yes I am

So I am sure you are wondering why I am bringing this up. Well because its been bussing in my head since last night.

Not sure if I bitched about some of the new lazy waitresses we have gotten but they suck, their work ethic sucks ... . Anyhow I was working with one of them last night. It was me, one of the other waitresses that is good Ms M and Ms Lazy.
Anyhow I got there last (always do since I work till 4 in the office) so Ms M takes me aside and tells me the Ms Lazy had been waiting for her in the parking lot and flagged her down as she was getting out of her car. Ms Lazy said that she heard that I and my scottish friend have been saying that she is not doing her side work. (She was written up for such a thing by the daytime manager last week). Ms M. told her that yes indeed there were problems in the last few weeks with new people not doing their side work and she should always ask someone to be sure she did what she was supposed to. So the night goes on and we are super busy. I ended up asking Ms M if it was indeed Tuesday and not Friday. I made mainly lousy tips except for a lesbian couple that just loves my appletinis and they always tip me very well - Grumpy says its because they like the way I walk. I still walked out with $150 despite the $4 and $8 tips I mainly had.
So the night winds down and I am trying to get my checks for a big table that insisted on paying separate as I overhear Ms Lazy saying she was going to mop the bar and bathroom and stock the beer and wine. Which is okay those where the side works assigned to her station. Well Ms. M comes over and tells me that Ms Lazy had asked her what she should do - to which Ms M replied she needed to ask me because all the side work was to be split between her and me. Ms Lazy shook her head and refused. I mean I didn't care that I had to do the majority of the sidework (clean the bar and bathroom and the patio) because I had tables in those to sections. Granted had I worked with someone else they would have offered to split the work more evenly but ... So while I am still cleaning and helping the poor busboy resetting the tables Ms Lazy sits down to eat and then left. I hear Ms M ask the owner why he let her leave - her section wasn't set up. I ask Ms M if the bathroom floor was clean (I knew it wasn't because I had just been there to clean) - and she said no it wasn't. So I ended up mopping that too - with a smile.

Now she was being just an idiot - knowing that someone was on her case and not doing her shit anyways - but you still don't know why I am evil right?
Remember how I said in this post (#8) that when crossed I can border on evil. Well she crossed me and here is what makes me evil - she did make however make it very easy.

When I cleaned the bathrooms I made sure that one of the pieces of paper she didn't clean up were right there to be seen. And then made sure Ms M went in under the eyes of the owner to find that in deed she did not clean it. After sweeping and moping the bathrooms I showed the "findings" to the owner to make my point. I also went to get lunch from the restaurant today where I mentioned to our daytime manager the happenings of last night and to please not schedule us together as she is clearly not capable of working together which is essential especially when we are that busy. I also told her she left it to us, the owner and his wife to set up the tables and ensure the busboy is not there till midnight! Well I am pretty sure this chicks days are numbered but seriously she made it way to easy on me. I mean you don't go around accusing me of being unfair to you, then refuse to help out in the clean up and get away with it. If someone accuses me not of doing something I'd make sure to get it done the next time but no not this chick- I am back on the schedule with her on Saturday so it should be interesting if she is still even around then.

picnic, tag and spidey

Well it seems the weather was on our side. The rain stopped long enough for people to get to the park and in the shelter. Grumpy even got the grill going and all the sausages and hot dogs where eaten in a heart beat. It ended up being 5 families with kids and 10 of the APs. The kids had a ball running around and enjoying each others company.

Grumpy left a bit before me so he could go and take a nap since he came from work (9pm-2am & 6am -2pm) straight to be grill master at the meeting. We were to finally go see Spidey but I couldn't get him up till hours after the show was over so we are going to do that this afternoon. Keep your fingers crossed for us.



Angel tagged me the other day

Here’s how it works: each blogger starts with eight to ten random facts slash habits about themselves… people who are tagged need to write posts in their own blog about the tag and post these rules… at the end of your post, you need to choose people to get tagged and list their names…

I am sure I have done this one last year but lets see.
1. I hate shopping (except grocery shopping)
2. I am rather shy
3. I can't wait to be a mom and the idea that it may not happen (well me being pregnant may not) haunts me daily
4. I don't believe in god but often wish I did believe in something
5. I like ketchup on my pasta
6. Death scares me. I used to freak out thinking I may not live through the night
7. I love to read and always carry a book in my purse
8. I am very sarcastic and can border on evil if you cross me
9. Most people think I don't have a temper - they are wrong!
10. Eat, sleep and read are my favorite activities (well aside rolling in the hay with Grumpy)

Okay lets see who can I tag mhhhh ... how about who ever would like to do this one.
okay got to run so I can finish up work on time and meet Grumpy for Spidey.

Karma?

Okay so I believe you do to others as you'd like them to you. Last night I had a table that used a coupon card. With those cards we always add the tip (18%) which I did. They had given me cash and I returned the change to them and they got up to leave. When I went to the table to I noticed they had left me $25 . I noticed they were still in the parking lot so I went outside and told them while I appreciated the extra tip I didn't think they realized that an 18% tip had already been added because they used a coupon. The guy thanked me and gave me $5 for my honesty and went on. I believe it was the right thing to do. I mean yeah I could have had 20 extra bucks and if they had not been in the parking lot I would not have felt bad about it but they were so I did the honorable thing. Anyhow most to the staff said I was being a idiot and should have just taken the extra money. What do you think?

Right now I am hoping for the rain to stop. I have the host family conference this afternoon - a picnic in the park. I rented a picnic shelter and so far am out $100 and it doesn't look like the rain is letting off. This sucks because I need at least 10 families to attend to make back the $100. So far only one said they are coming despite the rain.