Blogger Award

So after twisting REAL'S arm I was nominated for a



he actually wrote some really nice things about me. Well I really haven't done much posting with that not requiring you all to think lately.

There are a couple reasons for that.

1. I am busy.
1. there is more and new AP drama and I am up to 20 families now
   
2. i had to go out of town for work the last two weekends
3. my current class is a bit more labor intensive then the last
4. got new studies/patients at work that limit my goof off time
5. try to spend time with my friend AJ
6. work 2-4 nights at the restaurant (this week Wed-Saturday / was scheduled for Sunday but have to be at Busch Gardens at noon so gave my shift away
   
2. I am tired
1. well I'd say refer to point one and you know why
2. haven't been sleeping good lately - can't fall asleep so forth
3. my last day off was weeks ago and I haven't slept past 7am in a while
4. just plain worn out
3. I feel like I have no right to complain
1. honestly most of my posts are ranting and raving about stuff going on in one of my jobs or private life. But ever since my friend found out she was dying I feel like I have no right to do so. I am relatively healthy - aside the PCOS thing that keeps me from getting pregnant, I have a loving husband and 4 furry little monsters that make me smile, I have jobs I love (well most of the time but you know how that is) and most of all I am not dying!
   
4. I am not sure how to put down what I feel
1. I had given my friend my blog URL so I felt like I shouldn't post about how hard it is on me to watch her die because I didn't want her to feel sorry for me.
   
2. I was so scared that she would no make it through the weekend last week while I was in Houston - and then I hear when I call her that she was in the ER with a blood clot. Yesterday I called her and found out one of her lungs collapsed and they took fluid from her lungs and abdomen. When I asked her if I could come over she said NO! I didn't know how to feel about that. She never said no to be coming over before. I don't know if she was just exhausted or if she is mad at me.
   
3. I am being selfish for wanting her to be here on earth while I know she'd be better off moving on.
   

so anyway I will try to be better and go back to my normal postings. Which reminds me the restaurant has this "dine with Miss Virginia" tonight so I am sure there is a story or two in that.